January 2021. I am writing a code on the 27" screen iMac in front of me, and the itching on my eyes is annoying. In the last weeks the font I am looking at has been enlarged at least four times, and now the words double on the screen. I still don't know but in a few months my eyes will be closed for almost the entire day, with a bit of sight during the late evenings. My usual headaches don't explain it. The neurologists make a couple of diagnosis and prescribe me drugs that worsen the situation. I discover audiobooks. Not a good relationship at the beginning but I really cannot give up on books. Three years later, I have almost a diagnosis (a severe blepharospasm), and the treatment I received worked but not entirely. I menage to do few thing during the day, the photophobia makes me a vampire, and I use a white cane to go out when I am alone. I cannot work at the moment. In these years I have been officially diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder. I started to fix many t